Yesterday evening it struck me that this will be the first time ever that I won’t get a birthday card from my Dad.
I was so busy worrying about how to reply to a tricky email I more or less dismissed the thought and concentrated on the note.
I woke up early this morning at about 05:30 it hit me again, and how much of the process of dealing with his loss has been squashed by things that are not about him, and I just felt overwhelmingly sad.