A little while ago I took what felt like a major step: I left a good, safe, reasonably well paid, challenging, grown-up job in a well respected international professional services firm to try a new way of living. I was incredibly lucky to be offered a part time job with a small, well respected consulting business doing a job that is interesting and challenging in new and exciting ways. The idea was - is - that I spend the remainder of my time doing the passion bit: following a reckless little dream of doing something creative that I can loose myself in and maybe, just maybe, make half a living at to boot.
Hey, a girl can dream!
So for the past three months I have been getting used to working from home on the dining table which, having spent all nine and a half years of my working life in an office, is so much weirder than I imagined. Don't get me wrong, its not a bad thing - pretty much anything that removes the need to run the gauntlet of London transport in the rush hour is a winner in my book for a start off - but it is definitely different.
As is getting used to working part time. The radical new wave of discipline that requires - both to start and, moreover, to stop working without any of the formalised cues of office life - is a bit of a jolt!
Along side this I've been going back to school one day a week to do a jewellery course, realising a long held dream that I barely dared to admit to myself and put off for more pragmatic disciplines first time round. Mondays in the workshop start my week with a bang. Often literally.
So now, as I settle into my new reality and slowly accept that this is not just the longest weekend ever, I think the time has come to remind myself of the main reason for taking that leap.
My reckless little dream.
But where to begin? Its scary to take this fragile, precious, thing that I've kept carefully wrapped up in a secret box all these years – taking it out to give it a wistful little stroke from time to time - and try to make it real. So I have to remind myself of two things today: 1, work hard but don't go crazy with self-imposed pressure – I still have a day job, which I even get to enjoy, so won't go crazy, hungry or homeless just yet; and 2, whatever happens, its so SO much better to look back and think 'I gave it my best shot' than 'what if...'